May 2013
94 posts
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Beautiful Edens
Goodnight because it’s fucking not. So long and here’s to, well, I need it just to rain, rain like god could ably, aptly, arsely die. Goodnight and fuck hard.
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Living, Alive, Living
When I can’t care to exist and it’s because I have nothing going, nothing at all, just downers, all this Irish piss. And I’m down for days. Not worth this. Just dead in the shower. I never wanted this.
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I Wish It Did
When the drugs don’t work and you’re alone in the sky and there’s not enough alcohol to get you by, not nearly anything, and coming home, worn enough when the spirits tried, I only wanted to love you.
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What Only Hurts Deserves Us
I hear we’re supposed to die. Most of all we know to be mortal, be forgiving, be god-like. What is it to swear at the abyss? What is it to scare it and create bliss? I sum up humanity in tears and music and holding each other with all the fire of our words. I burn in the eyes until the ocean must hiss. Ache with the best of you, purely hurt. In the event we spend tomorrow, we’ll bear...
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Some Guy Stillwhere
With the son I don’t have, I hear a song. He is better than me coz I’m no father. We spend time surviving, schooling each other, withstanding the world with all we god and they’re words. I say, son, you’re not real coz your mother’s anon and swears me off to be someone’s forgotten forever.
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Belly Like a Cat's
After dozing in the shower-bath and laying in a wet towel, the night finally dark to where I see nothing. I felt like ending all day, but this, this opening my eyes to serene blackness; this will do, this appeals to my haunt. So I lay scratching the hairs on my my belly, seeming to enjoy myself; consoled by guts.
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Finality's Fucked
Am I supposed to be liked, forgiven, worth it? Am I to be someone you can make it with? Do me better and fuck me but don’t fifty-lies the word. We talk ready to feel, feel like we’re fucked, at least feel, fucker, feel unfucked and feel wholly ready, ready to fuck your unreal love. Am I no one but the one but to say finally fuck?
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Veronica Lake
Pain is desire because I crave it. And If I need you I’ll hurt. If I need you, simply suicide. You’re no Monroe. Why you’re perfect. Torn with me, swearing off Hollywood coz we’re drugs and fucking worse.
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It's Clearly You
Sever any idea to bleed juice from the eye. It’s always gonna hurt anyhow, this life, tasted, best tasting another, and severely I see you, with eye-flood and life’s high. We kiss with our eyes, raining sublime.
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One for the Kids; I Hate People
Something to cry about and that’s all there is. You forget it doesn’t hurt anymore, everything just feels itself away, feeling you not, feeling you off, feeling you like you can never make me feel again. I will cry dead mothers to tell you you fucked up. You fucked your chance to parent. You fucked your chance at love.
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Until We Ache Face to Face
Who is there left to fear? I like the way you burn on black, I wear cheapest. You tell us we’re dying, like a good doctor does but I’m surviving and family spoils in the ground. Who’s gonna tell me how you rot, how you spend your family taught?
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The Time We Had in the Dark
After the cinema, well, it was just a movie, but one we silently wept about, and I easily just needed to walk home alone. It’s hard to see you with me, with the air intoxicated and perfect, your sense of I wouldn’t fuck another man until it was you. That longing between us that lingers in unplayed pianos, until we drink somewhere that serves dares. I don’t take you home because...
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Oral Flesh
How easy it is to taste like pineapple juice for a lover, swallow sweet enough as if to say my balls are better. But you drain them anyway. Inspired by lust, and it’s tropical to know you. You’re papaya now.
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Breathcastles
Dilapidated rightlife, the worse was imminent, why I said goodbye long ago – get forgotten. Still, I’m here, unlucked and barely. I dreamt while I was real; valued more than was let of me. I was certain to be less, without falling into immorality, without failing like immortality. I sneered with my humanity.
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Diminish Our Saviours
Hold me coz I don’t hurt. Nothing’s worse; it all makes me feel worse. I wanna be your other but you know me and I can’t be worth time. How you could not cry and chose to be an angel. I think I, I must have loved all of you like I do worst of days and mainly nights; I only need a night. I need a little because I am daring enough and I know about god and he is less. Burn like...
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Often Earth
Despair of spirit and why I laugh. Ha ha fuck you. Ha you to hell. Ha you under. I am consistent with bar tale feel-good, feel away this almost life and goddamn I will do anything; perfectly survive. Watch me, other, tune your heart to mine, it’s time we told our lives. We become all there is to sunrise.
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The Worst, Beautifully Fine
Prolific, my ass. I don’t write enough. I don’t see enough. I don’t fuck the arrangements of beauty so open to me. I don’t do much. I make certain tomorrow will pain me and that’s how I admit to love.
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Heartbeat Sketchy
I think I’m better off alone. I think it arrogant to see us try. We’re not advocates of life. We hardly mutter a breath. Sure, I would love you. But in a Russian kind of way. Okay, maybe a Bergman. You talk as if god sweats. I sweat. I redeem my hell with how much you don’t damn. Damn it, baby, damn. Damn the crucial and why we must eat Spam. I’m better off coz we’re...
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While You Make Me a Better Man
Yeah, I need a shower and a girlfriend to slap me upside the head to get on it, get real, get that shit outta your head. You’re better than this. But am I? Am I not the one to sit in the shower and make it an all-nighter? Woman alive, I love to love you, but how can I without a purpose first? We’re flirtless.
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One for Gramps
I used to say to my grandpa, well I forget now, coz I was five, but we walked to rent video games and look at women and generally smile in the summer heat. Things were alright and he liked to tell me about things I don’t remember so I remember he’s my first real friend.
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Nobody Dying
Requisite despondency and surely, I am late to joke, keeping laughs to myself, like heartbreak, they’re mine. I never learned to ache the way it doesn’t kill me. I never knew pain was my friend and it’ll kill me. Suffer and curse, employed by alcohol, tied to my device. Make my bed to depress it. Clean my desk to spill it. Don’t wanna walk to the store for more of this,...
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What I Must Do to Get Over You
Tried to rub one off without porn, thinking about a big-arsed French teacher I could get erect to from ninth grade. But fuck it, threw on a skin for old time’s sake and unloaded without class: instant anal POV. Je suis desolée mais j’aime bien votre cul.
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White Bread
Watch me. It’s that easy to imbibe and glisten imbecile on rum. I rain the rain away to show it how to subscribe to all the hurtful people. Make money from us, make your means, do well and don’t even know what it is to hurt. Tomorrow night I’ll watch you be old, be with your wife, rich enough to let colored ladies make you ham sandwiches without crust. You crusty old man. You...
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Strain of Thought
Laughably Perez Hilton and shit, he’s just a cousin. Snow like we’re weathered. We’re too much to give a damn. Sham town and it’s One day. I’m gay enough to kill mirth. What is life coz I’m left? Holy sanctimony, holy well, you only suck on tit after tits. The alternate universe pretends to be promiscuous. It tries to fuck us but we do the best; we rarely sum...
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Burst
If we could abuse the bruise and let solemn what it is to be sex, all of us in fuck, I need you to look upon my cock. You’re just an angel.
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Essential Anxiety Lovemaking
Without what I can, on some precarious denial, to collapse within my wife sorrow, mostly, Ativan, love, and Ativan, my Ativan, lovely Ativan.
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Barely But Entire
Tell them I slipped. Tell them I’m real, and it’s okay. I’m not better tomorrow but I know how to make you feel so. Chance we deserve, but all we do is look around and goddamn if I will and serve, all my life trying for you, breakfast, dining without you, steadfast. If I could not be I, engage with less, sound like a man, get by with this. Forget I know how to utter. Forget I...
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Adolescent Tastebuds
I miss Dubai with its beaches. The sun and forget it, forgotten. I just liked snacking with the sea. Dimitri, you’re hilarious. So tell me how you fucked her. I held that bottle of Absolut but tasted her cunt anyway. Sitting outside as you moaned. Finish, man, finish. In Russia they cum. You gotta waste me. Sandy had a good time.
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Every Day Worse
Taking drugs just to get by and god not there so we create him and I’m glad we can hold each other when this pain– I miss you where it hurts, miss; mistaken.
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Deficit Scam Say
Terribly Sunday and it is, can’t miss it, can’t depress it. I want all the world to feel this, feel, feel how feelings crown. What you got, what this is, what we savior, oh the savior. Drip from the eye, drip into my savings account, drip alcohol. It’s all a need and I don’t know whether to bleed just or teethe. Tomorrow skies and look at it, look at it shallow, just look...
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Beginning to Nowhere
Absolute day. And how to run it; gun it. Librium with rum. Subsist with cum. I’m entire blasphemy. I said I was really. I said I was holy. Love less and wholly. Love you all nearly. Stance I have to lie. Don’t even, but hug.
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Gma
I spend time in my room and think to myself one day you will not be here. I won’t have my best friend to talk to. I think ma, you’re grand. I think grandma, I will heal you when it all hurts to say, it all hurts but we will be okay. We finitely damn it away. For ever.
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Little Debbie
Since the world lets me and you support me. You hold me up until everybody knows. Everybody will know how to cry. They all feel decided, beginning with the legs, ending with eyework and mom, it’s no surprise I’d leave heaven just to talk to you.
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Take Back All the Things I Called You
Butterflied myself away. Forgot it was today. Need to perform kisses to mothers, need to kiss what kept me here.
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Just Another
Coz I dare my stand-up to the only one I care about, coz I laugh at how it hurts, and I guess we got no one but family and uncle’s a lotta hurt; I incredibly hurt. When you learn how to talk, I’ll read you Rilke. Tears in my eyes, maybe you’ll feel them too.
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Brae
Holy fuck and I heard that as if it ends me and shit if I ain’t on knees and I showed you how to swallow so don’t but goddamn I love your sense of this is it, this is all it is, this and my favorite baby girl that laughs at facts and with every absurdity I create, she can create.
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So Many Activities
As if I’m a recluse and time I spend goddamn I’m alone. Niece, we laugh, laugh like no other, mom says we’re entirely our own. Baby girl, baby. And you’re too lucky, brother. This kid’s gonna be better than us and it hurts. Your wife invites me for food and I haven’t eaten in two days. I will eat it all as uncles do. I think I, think I love you. All and wow.
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Waltz Motherfucker
Since that text offed itself, whatever. Dance with me coz I’ll put up with you. Looks like we’ll do anything to masturbate. Where’s your drugs? I like opiates. They kill me to where I can fuck you. You like that.
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Cocktails Until Shot Glasses
Hold you, hold you coz you’re rare, hold off the idea they stare, hold you in close, hold you like forget it you wanna come toast. Drinks all over. Drinks. Mostly alcohol and goddamn. Drinks held up high and until the man comes home with sleepiness and dragon eye. Imagine us and we’re almost in bed.
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The Older I Let
I can’t be who I should. I’m not gonna be who I could. I no longer need to be what I will. I barely make it out alive. I tear at my ears just to thrive. If you know me you know me. I can’t endure. I can’t prosper committed. Ill enough, taste me. I refute tomorrow. I leave before then. If I stood, sail me.
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Ease
I was sad. I intimidated joy. I melancholied laugh. All the less, all the less.
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Woman, I'll Hurt with You
I see you on the bus. I make stories in my head of why you’re alone, why you can’t hold a man, why you deserve a real one. I think I’m your guy and I’m not but I imagine anyway, trying to feel you out. Maybe you are the one when I don’t believe in ones. I see you the next day and you’re a drug away from offing this altogether. You’re closer and I know...
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Shadowbrush
Entirely ghostly. Bass full of less. Can we dance? Only in the ears. How much to die? I seriously like you. Smells like less. Romance in flies. Cemetery hands.
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We Listen to Satie
I thought, ma, coz you had me, I can write till I’m torn. I write till I’m fucked. I’m fucking in awe. Ma, much love. And tomorrow’s your day. Tomorrow, you can say, I fucking had him and this is how he treats me, like his English. There is no other son.
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I Need to Make a Call
Sat listening to my brother and shit, there ain’t nothing wrong with me. We’re just real life. And if a song isn’t enough, it’s blaring, it’s out there caring, it’s all night and it’s an entire day just to slay. Brother, tell them how you kill it, everyone, this idea we’re not enough when all we do is mistake and that’s our take on lovely....
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In the Event I Am in the Event and in the Event
No more city. Rent until forget it, we’re gone. As if it’s fine. Glad to be not. Where we going? I didn’t need a plan. Economy’s flying. Cash-money in every street. Stay in the corn tonight; same as money. But I needa shit. S’why I left.
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Refrain Ill
Like what kinda fuck and it’s too bad I am. Fuck you sore till tomorrow staggers I am damned. Lager and fuck that. Hard lix if you know how to kiss. I appreciate dumb. Plague us and my cock is rum until we bleed mostly ugly.
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Care Bear Bruise
Scum of the candid hearse. Universe that does not frown. Belittle a death just to smile. Arrangements meant. Only the done will celebrate. Still around, still somehow. Think gone, think lost, think. Am I buried? Will I breathe like yesterday’s champion? What would Draper do? I don’t play with others. Become self-bothered. Chances are chance hid. Go outside, redeem the air....
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Euro Dollar Eyes
Plenty of fish. I don’t fish. Plenty to have. I don’t flirt. I want you and I don’t. Plenty to have. My whole life’s a bank account.
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